Bless This Mess: An Introduction To My Blog

This, my friends, is a new page.

New pages are scary, daunting things. Maddening, really.
This blog is like those little scraps of paper I have scrawled embarrassing confessions or unflattering lyrics on and lost in the disorganized and messy life I lead. Scraps that are later found in the back seat of the car, under the night table beside my bed, in the beat-up and discarded travel bag still filled with aging indispensables from a hundred trips to towns all over the western United States, lying there gaping open, guts exposed. The possibility always lingering that spouse or child will decide to be curious enough to find out who this person is that has nurtured them, yelled at them, made an jerk of themselves, and at various times made them laugh. Sometimes I wonder if people in my life would care to know that person. I know I do. I also care to know them.

I think I have been created to be special... I actually believe that, unflinchingly. Confirmed recently by a counselor friend who revealed some things about my personality type that explains a lot about the weird mixture of traits that I have fretted about, hated about myself, and am coming to accept. I believe that we were all created to be special, and the more we find clarity in our role in God's universe and what that means for our lives and those around us, I think the more special we become. We are carefully chiseled away to define these peculiar and intensely loved beings.

I hope my perspective doesn't scare you or make you think less of me. Suffice it to say that if you think less of me after reading my thoughts, at least we are in a more truthful place than we were before because here I will endeavor not to shade,warp or stretch the truth.

My day job is frustrating and boring. It does not fit me very well, but it has served my family and my music, which is very important to me. This blog is intended to allow me a place to write when the mood strikes me so that I don't get all stopped up creatively while working on circuit boards and optical instruments.

Welcome!